a song that describes you, this is it. take a minute to just read, you will see who I pretty much am, so…this is me.

how can I instill such hope
but be left with none of my own?
This applies to me with the way I care for people, I would rather put their happiness before my own, if I give them the hope to carry on so they can find their way then I know I’ve done good, I will encourage those to have hope but never have my own hope to live for, to breathe for.

what if I could sing
just one song
and it might save somebody’s life
I have always had such a passion for music, since losing my sister in a car crash 5 years ago I have sought in comfort, I fought depressing, cutting etc, I fought through it by learning how to play music, listening to new music, writing poetry and lyrics and then finally learning acoustic guitar and finding a voice to sing those lyrics I wrote. I want purpose to my life to know that I have helped someone through something that I had to fight through on my own, if I were to do that simply through my passion I will do my sister proud I will help someone in need and I will have finally fulfilled my lifelong wish. My love for music is my love for my sister I may not be able to run up to her and give her a hug but I know that my love is being put into a good place and hopefully she can hear me, and she’d sing it right back to me.

I sought after reasons to stay
I was lost
I was lost  
I have been lost alot in my life as said before with depression, I didn’t know where to turn, who to talk to, the world is a big scary place, so many decisions, so much hurt, so much going wrong that you forget about all of the things in life that are worth living for, all the goodness, the brightness of the sun, the warmth of it as it touches your skin as you breath in the fresh air and live to see another day, cherish that. I was lost and I am still finding reasons to stay I am finding ever little reason I can because some people cannot keep their lives, it is taken from them and they deserved to see all the sights ive seen, feel all the colourful emotions I’ve felt but they won’t so you need to cherish how lucky you truly are and keep searching for reasons to stay.

so this is why this song means so much to me.